9th June

Ive got some major appointments this week...and the first went awful..Solicters, basically got told that despite all the idiotic things that her "father" has done despite the fact that hes been inside for breaking my arm in front of my ds, despite the fact he cant maintain regular letterbox contact and despite the fact that in suffering from sever depression because of HIM and his actions....and the fact he hasnt seen her since 9months oldDespite ALL this, chances are hes going to get supervised contact and IM going to have to take her, all I can do right now is refuse mediation and hold the whole court process (for which ill have to pay the £175 odd contrubution a month again!) up just a while longer...NOW CAN I GIVE UP!